(Verse)
If nothing’s gonna change no matter how fuckin’ hard I try
Then why am I still livin’ here instead of in the sky? Cuz I
Don’t have the time or patience to be dealin’ with the bullshit any longer
Every question I ask, the answers I get couldn’t be any wronger
Enough of the fact-checkin’, it’s time to color my fuckin’ world
These water paints ain’t enough to even provide a basic swirl
So I’m aimin’ for pro pastels with amateur brushes
A canvas that’s rugged, a lot of others would say fuck it
But I prop myself up with the easel
Art imitating life, role reversal, seemingly inconceivable
Forced into a dreamland where nothing is believable
Being honest, when the cloud fades, I’ll be leaving if it’s real
As I strive with all my surefootedness when I need to heel
A couple scrapes and Band-Aids later, the pain I need to feel
Like there’s blood inside pumpin’, assured that I’m still alive
Either way I’m all alone, part of no pack, herd, or pride

(Chorus)
As for now
Nothin’s changed
I’ll go this route
Succumb to pain
Because when it’s all said and done
My back is broken and my head is hung
As for currently
It stays the same
It’s me that’s hurtin’ me
Numb in my brain
Because when it’s all said and done
My back is broken and my head is hung

(Verse)
How much further can I be pushed before it’s a bridge too far?
One that I can’t cross, these tribulations are a smidge too hard
The ink I’ve signed my soul away with is smudgin’ from the oil
In my fingers as I try and hold on in this fashion while I toil
Tirelessly until exhaustion, I’ve been searchin’ high and low
For any fuckin’ clue as to when it’s gonna be my time to go
This shit’s gettin’ to me quicker than a Jimmy John’s delivery
Uncertainty is fillin’ me as I ponder these simple mysteries
This life ain’t shit to me, another puzzle with a missin’ piece
I’ve felt despair before but it was never to this degree
My presence in the present mostly feels like history
Relivin’ new experiences and never reelin’ in victory
Like my line snapped, and if this fish is too big for me
It’s somethin’ I won’t accept, I’m too persistently
Chasin’ down these goals like a rabid dog lungin’ at bumpers
I’ll be dead in the road this summer, body cast aside, sunburnt

(Chorus)
As for now
Nothin’s changed
I’ll go this route
Succumb to pain
Because when it’s all said and done
My back is broken and my head is hung
As for currently
It stays the same
It’s me that’s hurtin’ me
Numb in my brain
Because when it’s all said and done
My back is broken and my head is hung

(Verse)
I’m tryin’ to force this spark like my ass was constipated
I knew this path was dark with no lamps to light the wayward
Wanderings I’ve undertaken, I know I’m diggin’ my grave in
Quicksand, I’m used to sinkin’, it’s fitting my coffin’s made in
The same situations because I know I’m gonna die as I lived
Alone and unhappy, after somethin’ simple the world never gives
Even when I pay the price in-full at multiple checkouts with receipts
As proof of purchase but the store still won’t let me leave
So what the fuck, I know it isn’t in my nature to constantly battle
With myself when inside my mind’s a motherfuckin' castle
I ain’t even been dethroned because I never had the seat
But I’ll rule my fuckin’ kingdom even if I’m stabbed and bleed
On the red carpet that misleads and misdirects the wisest
So how is it that early on in life, I’m stupid and realize this?
Perhaps the lessons I’ve learnt are ones that I can’t apply
A wasted education, fuck this shit, good-bye

(Chorus)
As for now
Nothin’s changed
I’ll go this route
Succumb to pain
Because when it’s all said and done
My back is broken and my head is hung
As for currently
It stays the same
It’s me that’s hurtin’ me
Numb in my brain
Because when it’s all said and done
My back is broken and my head is hung