Empty EP

by Matt Dyer

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'Empty EP' is a short collective of songs written and recorded between January 28, 2011 - March 4, 2011. Originally intended as a small side-project before resuming work on the 'Corruption LP', 'Empty' has blossomed into a project that stands on its own two feet and has spawned a lead-in trilogy to 'Corruption'.

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released March 8, 2011

Instrumentals Produced by: Telling Beatzz, Evelution Beats, Scrilla Productions, Tyrannical Productions, & E-Motion-L Beats

Written, Performed, Recorded and Produced by: M. Dyer

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Matt Dyer Algonquin, Illinois

Hip-hops' most unknown perfectionist/procrastinator.

Bringing back the essence of the 90's one line at a time, keeping the content 100%.

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Track Name: Head Is Hung
(Verse)
If nothing’s gonna change no matter how fuckin’ hard I try
Then why am I still livin’ here instead of in the sky? Cuz I
Don’t have the time or patience to be dealin’ with the bullshit any longer
Every question I ask, the answers I get couldn’t be any wronger
Enough of the fact-checkin’, it’s time to color my fuckin’ world
These water paints ain’t enough to even provide a basic swirl
So I’m aimin’ for pro pastels with amateur brushes
A canvas that’s rugged, a lot of others would say fuck it
But I prop myself up with the easel
Art imitating life, role reversal, seemingly inconceivable
Forced into a dreamland where nothing is believable
Being honest, when the cloud fades, I’ll be leaving if it’s real
As I strive with all my surefootedness when I need to heel
A couple scrapes and Band-Aids later, the pain I need to feel
Like there’s blood inside pumpin’, assured that I’m still alive
Either way I’m all alone, part of no pack, herd, or pride

(Chorus)
As for now
Nothin’s changed
I’ll go this route
Succumb to pain
Because when it’s all said and done
My back is broken and my head is hung
As for currently
It stays the same
It’s me that’s hurtin’ me
Numb in my brain
Because when it’s all said and done
My back is broken and my head is hung

(Verse)
How much further can I be pushed before it’s a bridge too far?
One that I can’t cross, these tribulations are a smidge too hard
The ink I’ve signed my soul away with is smudgin’ from the oil
In my fingers as I try and hold on in this fashion while I toil
Tirelessly until exhaustion, I’ve been searchin’ high and low
For any fuckin’ clue as to when it’s gonna be my time to go
This shit’s gettin’ to me quicker than a Jimmy John’s delivery
Uncertainty is fillin’ me as I ponder these simple mysteries
This life ain’t shit to me, another puzzle with a missin’ piece
I’ve felt despair before but it was never to this degree
My presence in the present mostly feels like history
Relivin’ new experiences and never reelin’ in victory
Like my line snapped, and if this fish is too big for me
It’s somethin’ I won’t accept, I’m too persistently
Chasin’ down these goals like a rabid dog lungin’ at bumpers
I’ll be dead in the road this summer, body cast aside, sunburnt

(Chorus)
As for now
Nothin’s changed
I’ll go this route
Succumb to pain
Because when it’s all said and done
My back is broken and my head is hung
As for currently
It stays the same
It’s me that’s hurtin’ me
Numb in my brain
Because when it’s all said and done
My back is broken and my head is hung

(Verse)
I’m tryin’ to force this spark like my ass was constipated
I knew this path was dark with no lamps to light the wayward
Wanderings I’ve undertaken, I know I’m diggin’ my grave in
Quicksand, I’m used to sinkin’, it’s fitting my coffin’s made in
The same situations because I know I’m gonna die as I lived
Alone and unhappy, after somethin’ simple the world never gives
Even when I pay the price in-full at multiple checkouts with receipts
As proof of purchase but the store still won’t let me leave
So what the fuck, I know it isn’t in my nature to constantly battle
With myself when inside my mind’s a motherfuckin' castle
I ain’t even been dethroned because I never had the seat
But I’ll rule my fuckin’ kingdom even if I’m stabbed and bleed
On the red carpet that misleads and misdirects the wisest
So how is it that early on in life, I’m stupid and realize this?
Perhaps the lessons I’ve learnt are ones that I can’t apply
A wasted education, fuck this shit, good-bye

(Chorus)
As for now
Nothin’s changed
I’ll go this route
Succumb to pain
Because when it’s all said and done
My back is broken and my head is hung
As for currently
It stays the same
It’s me that’s hurtin’ me
Numb in my brain
Because when it’s all said and done
My back is broken and my head is hung
Track Name: Bitches
(Verse)
Shame me once or twice, slut, you won’t play me no more
What? I’m the bad guy cuz the games are draining, you whore?
It’s off and on then off again, it happens so fuckin’ often
It’s no wonder that I wander aimless, thoughts I’m lost in
Tryin’ to figure out the paradox between what you say
And your actions, cuz in a way, what you try and convey
As a solid stance with one makes the other malleable
I just need a fuckin’ answer that’s concise and infallible
And if you can’t cook one up, get the fuck out the kitchen
It’s where you belong, you’re a woman, so quit your bitchin’
Am I wrong for makin’ the shift from tender to misogynist?
Put yourself in my shoes instead of the trend of a lobbyist
You like me, you love me, we’re just friends, then you hate me
When I didn’t do shit to you, yet you try and berate me
And make me out to look the asshole when you’re the brown eye
And you have the fuckin’ nerve to ask me “What’s with the frown line?”

(Chorus)
Stupid fuckin’ bitches
We’ve all fought one
Stupid fuckin’ bitches
We’ve all lost one
Stupid fuckin’ bitches
That can pull at our heartstrings
Take forever to arrive, only a second departing
Stupid fuckin’ bitches
We’ve all dated one
Stupid fuckin’ bitches
We’ve all hated one
Stupid fuckin’ bitches
That can tear out our heartstrings
And throw it against the wall with all the dangling arteries
Stupid fuckin’ bitches

(Verse)
I won’t lie, I’d fuck you again, but my heart’s so numb
I’d be lucky to get it up to hump much less hardly come
Still think of you, but only when shit’s goin’ awful
Life’s a bitch and you’re one too, both throwin’ obstacles
Dealin’ with either fuckin’ borders close to impossible
With no book in stock to tell me friendly or hostile
So the environment I’m stuck in is for my comeuppance
Of course this pile of shit has left me a curmudgeon
I’ll beat you with the rusty butt of a bludgeon
For makin’ my imagination see you as the one that I’m lovin’
When the reality is I’m seein’ someone when we’re huggin’
That isn’t you, the simple truth is that I’ve always been buggin’
And every time we fucked, I only thought about smotherin’
You with a pillow but I’d forget it by the time I was nuttin’
After all the deception, fuck no, I ain’t trustin’
You with shit again, bitch, just gonna get treated like nothin’

(Chorus)
Stupid fuckin’ bitches
We’ve all fought one
Stupid fuckin’ bitches
We’ve all lost one
Stupid fuckin’ bitches
That can pull at our heartstrings
Take forever to arrive, only a second departing
Stupid fuckin’ bitches
We’ve all dated one
Stupid fuckin’ bitches
We’ve all hated one
Stupid fuckin’ bitches
That can tear out our heartstrings
And throw it against the wall with all the dangling arteries
Stupid fuckin’ bitches

(Interlude)
*Phone rings*
*Voicemail plays*
Hey uh, It’s Matt, I was just callin’ to see what’s up with you. Um, call me back later. One.
*Phone hangs up*

(Verse)
You hit me when I was down, I have a vengeance to kick sluts
Didn’t know I’d go through this much to get my dick sucked
I coulda smoked meth and it wouldn’t have left me this fucked
On the rink with no mask, check it, life likes to lift pucks
Stuck with egg on my face, I didn’t eat you out on the rag
But you leavin’ had me boxed in, was bein’ chased by the plaid
Wonderin’ when UPS or FedEx is comin’ by for the shipment
Of bullshit lows that got me resortin’ to gettin’ high for the difference
Been swimmin’, Captain Backfire doesn’t know where the ship went
Used to sinkin’ by now, the engine cranked with no pistons
Cuz I’m sicka hittin’ my head and wishin’ you dead, I’m a victim
Of your retarded fuckin’ reasonin’ but I’m not free from the prison
Shit, you’re the only exception I’d make for a woman needs hittin’
In the fuckin’ face until the jaw snaps, fisted or with mittens
God dammit, you fuckin’ cunt, just thinkin’ pissed has my vision
Blurred red at the edges in a rage bad enough to shiv kittens

(Chorus)
Stupid fuckin’ bitches
We’ve all fought one
Stupid fuckin’ bitches
We’ve all lost one
Stupid fuckin’ bitches
That can pull at our heartstrings
Take forever to arrive, only a second departing
Stupid fuckin’ bitches
We’ve all dated one
Stupid fuckin’ bitches
We’ve all hated one
Stupid fuckin’ bitches
That can tear out our heartstrings
And throw it against the wall with all the dangling arteries
Stupid fuckin’ bitches
Track Name: What Goes Around
(Verse)
You broke my heart and left me, how could I forgive you?
Who the fuck knows, I was an idiot and I was into you
So the time and energy I spent was an investment wasted
And in the end it went from tenderness to so much hatred
You led me on and treated me like I was expendable
While I sat alone and lied to myself and tried to pretend it was real
Fuckin’ bitch, there’s no more perfect phrase I think I could use
You robbed me and there’s nothin’ left within for me to ever lose
I ain’t jaded, I ain’t guarded, just scared and fuckin’ nervous
Cuz my heart is the largest right now but it could all be worthless
If I meet someone like you again, you said you cared and you’d pretend
But in the end, you went back to him, fuckin’ bitch, no glue could mend
At least I thought, I spent 7 months pacin’ while you were on his cock
Then the second I thought I had you back, you just went and threw me off
For another once more, I made a decision, I could spend months or
I could get the fuck over you and it was hard, but I managed, you stupid cunt, whore

(Verse)
With you, I’ll admit it wasn’t nearly as serious, shit
I heard you were a slut and I was thinkin’ with my dick
But my heart got the better of me and look where I done landed
Back on Heartbreak Island but for you, I was never stranded
I learned from the past and this time, knew how to make a raft
Got over you fast, no more rebounds, no more in it for ass
And I thought it was a clean break, but then I kept hearin’ shit
You still liked me, you made mistakes, to me you disappeared, you bitch!
Apparently there’s one thing in common, I’m the one that got away
But I’ve never fuckin’ left a one! You didn’t have the guts to stay!
And I didn’t have the nuts to say “I’m the best you’ve ever known”
Because I might be good but God damn, my ego ain’t that blown
If I needed any more coals to add to the fire I’m feedin’
You sayin’ the same shit as the last bitch, déjà vu, it keeps repeatin’
For the same motherfuckin’ reasons even if I did shit different
What’s to say that your dumb hoochie ass still wouldn’t be dippin’

(Verse)
Took a step back for a minute and thought about what I was doin’
I need to quit bein’ a dipshit and find someone worthwhile pursuin’
But I’ve struck out enough, so why the fuck would I go up to bat again
I’m nice, I care, I give a fuck! In comparison, everyone’s the badder man
Of course I’m bitter, ho! Fuck, at this point, it’s expected of me
And now I got trust issues from these sluts, I know they’ll never love me
Put the dullest blade to my skin, best believe that shit’ll cut deep
Old and weathered, tattered, torn, dejected, lost, and sick of suffering
Track Name: A Simpler Retrospective
(Verse)
Just a kid playin’ outside, watchin’ parades of fireflies
On dim-lit summer nights, roller blades, Italian Ice
Action figures, LEGO sets, good grades, a valid life
Pedalin’ around the neighborhood on balanced bikes
Carefree and free of care, that’s when talent strikes
Flyin’ through the air, to feel the talons slice
Lifted up, evaporated innocence, now you give a fuck
More responsibilities and less time given just to live it up
From the age of 5 to 9 are the best times of your existence
I mean mine were as a minor, for you, it could be different
But in this instance, let’s pretend the feeling is agreed upon
That the book’s always been the same, we used to read it wrong
Or that’s what we’ve been taught since kindergarten on
That life is work, the same reversed, ever since we was fawns
But then the subliminal message of money done sunk in
Years after Halloween became less about new costumes and pumpkins

(Chorus)
If I could go back to the times where
Life was simple
I’d do it in an instant
When my biggest worries were
Parents and the principle
And it didn’t matter if you fit in
When the edges of the world
Seemed so distant
When money wasn’t an issue
It didn’t matter about dividends
Why can’t it be like that all the time?
What kind of world are we livin’ in?
What kind of world are we livin’ in?

(Verse)
When tree forts and trampolines were the shit and reigned supreme
When after school your group would split into tag and hide and seek teams
When cops and robbers was with cap guns instead of the nightly news
When New Balance and K-Mart brand were cooler than the Nike shoes
When you didn’t want to fuck someone, you found ’em funny and liked ’em, cute
When cliques were nonexistent and the whole class was a tight-knit group
When wakin’ up early on a Saturday morning was what made sense
When trading Pokemon cards durin’ lunch was equivalent to payin’ rent
When the world was much larger than what it turns out to be
When hangin’ out was about playin’ GoldenEye all around the TV
I mean we still do that nowadays, but back then, without weed
Why couldn’t we have stopped development once we learned how to count and to read?
When driving wasn’t even cool to us, we were content with ridin’ the school bus
Before acne was ever a problem, noones’ faces fuckin’ oozed pus
When the cartoons were actually good, when the toys were still fun
When hours of entertainment didn’t mean drinkin’ alcohol from 8 to 1

(Chorus)
If I could go back to the times where
Life was simple
I’d do it in an instant
When my biggest worries were
Parents and the principle
And it didn’t matter if you fit in
When the edges of the world
Seemed so distant
When money wasn’t an issue
It didn’t matter about dividends
Why can’t it be like that all the time?
What kind of world are we livin’ in?
What kind of world are we livin’ in?

(Verse)
From the playground to the park, to bein’ home before it’s dark
Where 20 minutes was the extent of pain brought on by broken hearts
When you proudly showed your scars and let forth every thought
A paradox of ignorant and well-aware to the formulation of clots
When the only time you felt frantic and panicked was from dodge ball
When the batteries on your Game Boy died mid-use meant you lost it all
When your friends weren’t 40 miles away, just across the hall
Or down the block, when each one of your moms would always call
When homework was 5 math problems instead of 5-page essays
It doesn’t feel that long ago, sometimes it seems it was just yesterday
Where the world was at your fingertips and yet so far out of reach
I guess shit ain’t changed in that respect, not for me, at least
Noone said growin’ up was easy, but what they all failed to mention
Was that adulthood fuckin’ sucks, it’ll always pale in comparison
And you’ll look back on it fondly when you’re frail and your hair is thin
Sittin’ in the easy chair, wonderin’ how quickly the years have went

(Chorus)
If I could go back to the times where
Life was simple
I’d do it in an instant
When my biggest worries were
Parents and the principle
And it didn’t matter if you fit in
When the edges of the world
Seemed so distant
When money wasn’t an issue
It didn’t matter about dividends
Why can’t it be like that all the time?
What kind of world are we livin’ in?
What kind of world are we livin’ in?

If I could go back to the times where
Life was simple
I’d do it in an instant
When my biggest worries were
Parents and the principle
And it didn’t matter if you fit in
When the edges of the world
Seemed so distant
When money wasn’t an issue
It didn’t matter about dividends
Why can’t it be like that all the time?
What kind of world are we livin’ in?
What kind of world are we livin’ in?
Track Name: Left Behind
(Verse)
It ain’t what I aimed for, but what I’ve grown accustomed
Everyone pulls ahead, I get a thin dustin’
Watchin’ the train leave when I should be conductin’
Every cloud’s a middle finger, even the Lord said “Fuck him”
Goin’ down this lonely road, this life is semi-truckin’
Couldn’t have foretold the traffic that I’d be stuck in
Tried stickin’ to the plan but I didn’t have the suction
Slidin’ down the window, never feelin’ troublesome
Only troubled though, the lowliest of humbled souls
A scattered seed far away from the fields comfort grows
Been roamin’ the Lost Woods where my compass goes
Haywire, so many trees, I was in search of a clump, a grove
A pile of shit in my hand, thought I had a bunch of gold
Musta been swapped out when I was drunk and unfunction-oal
Wouldn’t be the first time that I’ve crumbled goals
Whenever I’m marchin’ forward, I may as well run from those

(Chorus)
Move on, I’ll be fine
Trust me
I’m used to being left behind

Move on, I’ll be fine
Trust me
I’m used to being left behind

Move on, I’ll be fine
Trust me
I’m used to being left behind

Move on, I’ll be fine
Trust me
I’m used to being left behind

(Verse)
Been waitin’ for a minute, catchin’ up, I’m hitch-hikin’
Sittin’ in the bed of the rusty pickup I’m ridin’ in
Watchin’ clouds roll while I can’t gain any traction
So I let the wind blow, it’s a fatal attraction
Tryin’ to play the role in situations where imaginin’
Isn’t the kind of action that’s considerably passin’
As sociable, didn’t know it’s this noticeable
Focus on the words, not just listen for the vocals
Never was the best or the brightest enrolled in school
No shit, I’m a bad breed, half-Polish, half-yokel
The world’s passin’ me, may as well just rap local
Prince and the pauper, fuck it, I can’t act noble
The two things I uphold, hip-hop and chivalry
Are dead to the world and it feels like they’re killin’ me
Missin’ bein’ out of this prison, breathin’ and feelin’ free
The shit I used to have is what instills this will in me